August 14, 2012
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Torn.
I talked to my mom earlier today…they had to take my father to the ER last night. Dad took the dog for a walk and was gone for a bit (which isn’t worrisome by itself), but then the dog came back without my dad. Mom saw the dog outside, but not Dad, and went to look for him. Apparently, Dad had collapsed in the alley by our house. He was totally fine when she got to him, he just couldn’t get up on his own. Mom wasn’t able to get him up by herself, so she got our next door neighbor to help. After that, she stuffed him in the car, and they went to the ER to get him checked out.
The ER said that Dad is super healthy (other than the prostate problems, the Parkinson’s and the dementia / Alzheimer’s). His blood pressure was fine, all the blood work they ran came back normals, and all the scans they ran were good. They think it’s a medication interaction that is causing the dizziness and collapsing (this isn’t the first time he’s gone down), and hopefully changing the medications will help some of that. Mom said that Dad told her his feet wouldn’t work…like there was some sort of disconnect between his feet and his brain. Plus…he’s been hallucinating nearly daily for the past week.
I really hope they get his meds sorted out and all of this comes to an end. I just want him normal again, even though I know that might never happen. I’m so torn on what to do…realistically I know that going home will accomplish nothing. I can’t do anything there, they don’t even need me there! It’s not like Dad’s in the hospital or dying, he’s just dealing with some crap that will get sorted out soon. But the other part of me wants to go home SO BADLY to see him, to see for myself that he’s doing ok and that he’s going to get better. Bottom line though…I can’t take a week off to go home every time he collapses…there’s no way I can afford to do that with my job.
So yeah…it’s a bit shit right now. I’m stressed out completely with my job, the move home, and now this. I need a break, but I don’t see one coming any time soon. And I want my Dad to get better, but I know better than to pin my hopes on that. My parents’ 50th wedding anniversary is in October, and I think I’m going to fly home and surprise them for that. I just need to hold on until then…it’s less than 2 months from now.
XOXOXO,
K.
Comments (4)
Hon, I’m sorry.
I wish there was something I could do to help. Let me know if you want to talk, ok? What am I saying? Email me anyway.
@bittersweetjaded - Thanks love. Don’t worry, I’ll send you an email.
ugh wow, I can totally understand why you are so torn on what to do. I think though when you look at it logically like you have so far, realistically you are right, you can’t go home everytime he winds up in the ER or something like that. hang in there.
That would be super sweet!!! Just make sure they don’t decide to take a vacation to the Bahamas without your knowledge, lulz