October 2, 2012

• Long talks.

  Jamie and I have been talking more about the future.  What we want out of life, out of each other, out of our relationship, out of ourselves.  We find ourselves having conversations in the strangest places…while out on a walk, at a restaurant…or better yet, at a bar.  Sure…why not, right?

  So, our most recent indepth “conversation” (if you could call it that), was around children.  Namely, when to have them.  Jamie and I were sitting at a bar in Germany, having a drink and waiting on our dinner, and he looks over at me and says, “how about we make our Christmas trip this year a baby making trip?”  Ummm…do what!?  That’s it.  No warning, no lead-in, just “hey!  let’s do this!”  I know I’ve been ready for awhile now, but Jamie hasn’t been.  Work has been insane, his job here isn’t exactly what one would describe as “satisfying” from a work/life balance perspective, and overall, we’ve been doing our absolute damndest to travel as far and wide as we can.  All that doesn’t exactly scream “hey!  let’s make a baby”…at least, not to us.  So…we shelved the conversation awhile ago…decided not to bring it back up until we moved home and were settled.  At least, I told Jamie I’d stop bringing it up, since I was starting to feel like I was pushing him, and that’s definitely not what I wanted.  And so…I did…for about 5-6 months.  Then, out of the blue, in the middle of a German bar, he tosses that at me.  Honestly, I think my face about split from the giant smile on my face.

  So now…it’s back on the table.  Hopefully, during Christmas vacation, we can start trying for a baby.  I’m still on the pill, but this will be my last month, and then I’ll take a few months to let my body regulate itself.  We’re hoping to move back to the States in February/March timeframe, so that will be perfect timing, since I doubt I’ll get pregnant right away (but man, trying is a blast!).  We’re still looking for houses and whatnot, and making plans of what we need to purchase.  I’ve got a list of things about a mile long that I want to do once we’re home, so I know it will never be boring.  I’m ready for this…and Jamie is too, and it is so nice to be on the same page.  He’s going to be such an amazing father, I can’t even describe.  How he acts with our friends’ children is  so sweet.  He’s so engaged, so gentle and loving…he has 11 nieces and nephews and he’s the favorite uncle with them all.  He’s going to be so great at this.  Myself…well…that’ll be a “wait and see”…but hopefully I’m not too terrible.

  So…yeah…that’s where we stand right now.  Sort of “out of the blue”, but apparently that’s how we roll.  Don’t worry, I won’t get into the nitty gritty of our progress, but I’ll update if something happens!

  Hope you all are doing well!

  XOXOXO,
  K.

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